Sunday, June 21, 2009

21th June 2009

Yesterday gull sent me an email about the conversation he had with irin over msn.
Hmmmm.... seems like she tried talking to WQ about us as well. bad mistake. hahaha WQ is somehow the total opposite of me. he's competitive while i'm cooperative. he's a male chauvinist while i'm not. Seems like he had given irin an impression that i'm feeling inferior due the the fact that irin is much higher educated than me. haiz... inferiority complex is a BIG thing with irin.
the truth is, i'm proud of what she has achieved and will achieve. and i have no qualms about her earning more than me or paying for me or stuff.

Seems like alot of compliments are coming to me recently.
Seagull: i believe that randy is not a slacker or someone who enjoys doing nothing
he is someone with capability and will go far in the righ environment
he has yet to realise his potential
Thanks, dude. thats one of the best compliment that anyone can have. kinda of remind me of feng yun. 金鳞本是池中物,一遇风云便化龙。

Slash had a very high opinion of me as a IT person.

the most surprising thing was that today my mom said to me something that she had never said before. When she and my family went to attend the prize presentation which i was the N-level top student, they ran into my principal and he told my mom that i was a very intelligent person. since that time, my mom always thinks that i'm meant for "GREAT" things. hahahaha all my life, my mom only comment to me that i wasnt a kind person, even to the point of ruthless.

Today went over to TPY for Bak Gu Teh. Uncle4 bought 3 baskets of durian and they were eating durian like crazy. Dad let me drive his car ard the car park a few times. hmmmm... auto car will need some time to get used to. parking also will need practise since the poles are no longer there to guide. the "party" was nice. alot of ppl came. food's awesome too.

Seems like Sunny is abit shy ard ppl. she have a tendenacy to cling onto ppl that she know. she cant even talk to strangers properly. hahaha. when i asked her, how did she managed to start talking to me, she didnt know. life is such. sudden. unexplained.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

20th June 2009

Yesterday flunk my M9 again. haiz... Kok Wah wan to arrange for me to try again, go for refresher as well as go to his office where he will go through the text with me. -_-" even til now, i'm not sure how much comission will there be for selling policies. also whether there will be basic or not. Hmmm... maybe it's time to find kok wah and hammer out the terms and stuff. I'll be needing money to move ard and support my basic needs.

After the flunked test, went over to PS to put in stock. will be concentrating more on selling my old extras. mainly chibi gallery stuff. Shannon had some difficulty with customer and merchants again. service line is always like that. you cant please all of the ppl all of the time.

Went over to meet boon and ray for nihon mura. nice long talking session. crap about everything there is. talk about finance and future plans as well. basically the 3 of us are not working at the moment. Ray will be looking for work using his degree though. as for me and boon, paper quali not there. have to look for other means.

After the buffet, went over the millinia walk to chill out and try some new coffee at starbucks. Slash came lugging a big box. a new NAS that can hold up to 4 HDDs. wanted to try out the dark mocca, but end up just taking abit from ray and slash in order to save my last $10 for popeye chicken later. Tubei came over to chill also. Shinvy came also. angie and her colleague dropped in for 5 mins. now then i know that slasher tot that i have a strong dislike for going to the cinema. hahaha, when i say that its not the cinema but its a money issue, then we both realise that slash had all the while tot that i have no money issue, and that i have been doing IT at home as a side income as he is. hahaha, then i just told him, if he is willing to pay, i'm willing to go.

After coffee, tubei left to meet his friend for movie. me boon ray shinvy slash went over to Popeye chicken to meet up with pebble. Popeye chicken shrunk... how sad... haiz... Boon left early to catch the last bus. me slash pebble ray shinvy went to sit by the river to enjoy the sea breeze while chatting. pebble told us about her office politics and bad IT service. slash and i laughed as we plan out all kind of evil things we can do to thier IT dept. Head feel very big today as slash compliment me twice: that i'm one of the few who can see through ppl (mainly him) and that i have GREAT IT skills. by the way, both are not true. i just know how to BS ppl. hahaha. at the end, shinvy got too tired. so we went home.

Hmmm... actually i was thinking if i should be bringing sunny along to meet them. think she might enjoy talking to them also. Sun lovers are a very unique group of ppl. slash comment that in the history of IRC, there wasnt any group that was as active, as big, as happening as sunlovers. even now, there isnt any to match.

Sunny almost fainted when she saw my collection of comics. how can anyone have so much comics stacked under the desk? then i showed her whats in the cupboard. her eyes went wide~ then i showed her whats in yan's room. needless to say, she asked to borrow some. :) nay... i told her that she can come over and read anytime.

Sunny had the nickname of literature girl. a similarity between us. someone once asked why am i always seen with a book? another person answered if randy isnt with a book, he isnt randy. hahaha well... that was in the paper age. but even know, i feel better flipping a book that just reading everything off a LCD screen. even though i read most of the stuff online due the the speed of release as well as money issue, i'll still go and buy the comic books when i have the money.

Wonder if all Taurus or all earth-based horoscopes are like that. Sunny likes to eat yummy food. irin always comes to mind when talking about food outings. Sunny likes hangs out with her friends and eat yummy food. maybe the 2 of them can become good friends?

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

17th June 2009

Brain overload. System Malfunction. Woke up with a stiff neck and a headache.
Went to take a nap after lunch. applied boost to my neck and shoulder and took 2 panadol. feeling alot better for class later. hopefully can recall back everything for friday's test. think it was a mistake to load the day with theory lessons on monday and tuesday.

Think i must be going crazy... while trying to keep my distance from Sunny, i actually turned down offers for sex. -_-" haiz... this is a hopeless situation. Irin is waiting for me to get back with her, Sunny is trying to close the gap, and i'm running away from everything.
but why did i turn down free sex? i have no idea. maybe sex isnt that much of a hype to me anymore. maybe i just dont wanna feel like betraying anyone...

Had a fight with Sunny last night. she was angry over my not telling her about my past gf. saying that i'm still thinking of them la, havent gotten over them lah. hmmm... not that i still have feelings for them but i dont wan images of them to come into the relationship. dont wan comparisons to be made and so on. cant everything start on a fresh panel?

hmmm... if really wanna see if i have feelings for them, what i can say is, if i run into them in the street and they ask for a $10 dollar, i'll lend it. $20? nope. of course, this will depend on whether i have money on me.

why do i do this kind of comparison? simple.
how much will you lend a stranger on the street?
in my case, not even $2. IRC ppl? i'll beat them if they even ask.

Time to start getting ready for class.

Monday, June 15, 2009

15th June 2009

Went back to class today for insurance. alot of things to absorb.

Spend some time with Sunny over the weekend. things are more or less ok. well... as long as she dont probe too much.

She's a nice ger la. hmmmm... can see some similarities between her and irin... i wonder if things will turn out the same way.

alot on my mind. dont really know how to say or what to say.

Hopefully, next week my directions will be clear. whether or not, i start selling insurance. i'll need to be getting some money in fast.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

12th June 2009

Yesterday i passed my driving. haiz... why not happy? dont know. dont feel it.

Went to PC show with Ray and Seagull. Nothing much really. but it was already quite crowded at 3plus. cant imagine how things will be in the evening.

M1 and Starhub were offering free laptop with mobile broadband. frankly, if it was LG, i would have asked yan to go ahead with it. other than that, nothing much to look at. HP colour lasers going at 400+.

Went to Simlim after Suntec to buy laptop cooling pad for mrs gull. after which, went to sunshine.

Chill out at iluma abit. then go home liao.

Sunny kept trying to ask me out. but recently i'm feeling very lazy to go out.
dont know lah... even though i feel like meeting her, i dont wan her to think that i'm always at her disposal, or that my time is not valuable to me. i wan my own time. time alone. time to do nothing. even if i'm doing nothing, i'm doing my something. hopes she understands. dont really talk to her much on the phone either. i still dont like talking on the phone.

Ppl will always have a different view point on different objects. some will think spending on IT stuff is worth it, some thinks not. i hope Sunny dont get the wrong idea. but that's just how i am and i hope that she can accept it.

alot of ppl are thinking that me and irin will get back together again. i dont deny that possibility. just that, there are certain changes i wan to see happening. not only in her. but also in me. what kind of changes? i dont know. even if i know, i cant tell.

Some might call me a two timer. but frankly, what would you do in my shoes?

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

10th June 2009

Hmmm... the inevitable has happened.

Sunny started asking about my past gf.

Should i tell? or should i not?

Irin likes to drag my past gfs out when we have a fight. hate it when that happens.

Not becos i still have feeling for them, but the names reminds me of my failed relationships. Learn from failures but never dwell on them for they only bring negative effect.

Tomorrow will be my 3rd driving test. Please God, let me stay calm, drive smooth, passed through.

Room 2009










A walk through of my current room. Dont not panic if you get lost. shout and our personel will be with you shortly.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

7th June 2009

Yesterday, Sunny came over the spend the day with me.

Feel abit awkward at first, but it will pass.

We did some reading together. from time to time, we'll talk and ask questions to about one another. I was quite surprised that her birthday is 1 day before mine.

Feeling abit hand itchy, i started to build gundams kits. She watched me as i worked on fixing up the Kong Ming Gundam. something that i left alone for a long time and didnt get ard to start fixing. She said i look cute when i'm concentrating so hard. heehee.

We watch Zettai Kareshi series together so that later we can watch the movie of it which i just finished downloading. J-drama have a tendenacy to release movies when the ending isnt really "finished". we both laughed when Night spray himself with water to simulate sweat while working out. She got all teary when Night was going to "die". i held her hand tightly while fighting back the tears in mine. The movie was something totally unexpected and it brought more tears to us. Spoiler: Night left Riiko's life knowing that there are certain things that he will never be able to give her. I held Sunny closely in my arms as she cried for Night.

We laid in bed and chat. she fell asleep on my chest.

This morning she was surprised when i started to arrange the stuff for praying as this morning is the 15th of the 5th lunar month. I send her to the MRT station as i'm skipping church today.

Went for Cousin Weide's 2nd baby's Full Month celebration.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

4th June 2009

Went over to CSC to pick some stuff and went over the PS to sort out some stuff in the locker.

Its getting abit hard to ask raymond out. what we like to eat, dont match. he dont wanna go gym also. abit paisei to ask him to run all the way to TPY. Bukit Batok gym dont have chin-up trainer also.

Even though, i'm against meeting Sunny too often during this time, i'm just too bored... so went to meet her and hang out after her work is over.

We went to try out the circle line. wah, the train is only 3 cabins. the type of train used is similar to the Northeast line train. Throughout the journey, Sunny kept hopping up and down the 3 cabins claiming how small it is. hahaha, just like a little kid.

We went over to Junction 8 and had Shilin for dinner. not very filling, but ok for me as i'm trying to cut down on eating. damn, i keep thinking of going for sushi buffet again.

Went over to the library after dinner. I took some books and went into the reading area. Sunny selected books to read too and followed me into the reading area. I was surprised when she took out a pair of reading glasses as she settled down beside me. She blushed when she noticed me staring at her. then she tried to hide behind her book. i lean in and whisper into her ear, "you look pretty with glasses too." and she flushed a deeper red. halfway through, she fell asleep on my shoulder. guess she's too tired from work. i gently let her lie on my lap and continued to read. from time to time, i'll pat her gently on the head. heehee, sort of like having a puppy.

borrowed a number of books to study on. feel abit guilty as Sunny went home herself. Too many book to carry and send her also.

Came home, packed my figmas, cleared the table. can start to study tomorrow.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

3rd June 2009

Went back to camp for mob briefing today.

Haiz... a waste of time, but something that had to be done. well, at least with this over, i can start repacking my room and sealing away my army stuff.

After briefing, went with ck to IMM to walk walk at Daiso. bought some stuff. but the haul of the day was 4 ocarina. in case you dont know whats that, listen to this.



Even CK bought one out of curiousity. hahaha i'm so good at convincing ppl to spend money needlessly. CK was complaining that he never spend so much when he shop at Daiso.

We went to Long John after that, i eat while CK watched. then we discuss about life and stuff. interesting chap. Well, CK, now you are a page in my log of life. anyone who read this, or i will remember you even if you disappear into thin air this very instant.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

2nd June 2009

Dont know why, i happened to like the song falling down by Oasis.

Frankly, the song is abit anti-god.

Woke up ard 10 this morning and had a light brunch of yesterday's kong ba.
When i ask mom how to prepare the dish, dad got very excited. he even wanted my mom to buy the meat so that i can prepare it tomorrow.

He said that it was a dish passed down by my a-gong. though mom tried to teach aunt1 and aunt2 how to make it, they didnt succeed.

On and off, Sunny will sms me trying to cheer me up. I'm starting to feel abit bored and restless. alot of things i wanted to do or have to do, just dont wanna start on it...

Feel like going out to meet Sunny for dinner, but somehow stopped myself. maybe not meeting too often at first will be good also. shrug. maybe its good to have some time to think and hear myself also.

Falling Down by Oasis



The summer sun, it blows my mind
Is falling down on all that I've ever known
Time will kiss the world goodbye
Falling down on all that I've ever known
Is all that I've ever known

A dying scream makes no sound
Calling out to all that I've ever known
Here am I, lost and found
Calling out to all

We live a dying dream
If you know what I mean
All that I've ever known
It's all that I've ever known

Catch the wheel that breaks the butterfly
I cried the rain that fills the ocean wide
I tried to talk with God to no avail
Calling Him in and out of nowhere
Said if You won't save me, please don't waste my time

All that I've ever known
All that I've ever known
It's all that I've ever known

Catch the wheel that breaks the butterfly
I cried the rain that fills the ocean wide
I tried to talk with God to no avail
Calling my name and out of nowhere
Said if You won't save me, please don't waste my time

The summer sun, it blows my mind
It's falling down on all that I've ever known
Time will kiss the world goodbye
Falling down on all that I've ever known
Is all that I've ever known

Monday, June 1, 2009

Umbrella

Recently, this came into my view alot.

Firstly, there was this korean drama with this line. "would you choose a man who comes to you with an umbrella or a man who walks with you in the rain?"

Then in the recent release of Gintama 112, the second half of the episode was about kagura.

Kagura belongs to race where they are the strongest fighters, but they have a weakness towards the sun which means they'll need to carry ard an umbrella all the time to shield them from sunlight.

In this episode, it was a rainy day. Kagura was envying the other normal gers with bright fanciful cute umbrella. she got so pissed by it that she kept her umbrella and walked in the rain, saying that her umbrella is spoilt.

Gintoki bought a new umbrella, a bright stylish with foral design, and gave kagura his old one. -_-"

anyway, Kagura took that umbrella and went out with it as much as she can. to places, to parks, to chill out with friends. then one day, the umbrella got torn up by a typhoon.

She repaired the umbrella using alot of loose cloth and went out with it happily again. then when she passed by a pair of orphans hiding from the rain, she left them the umbrella.

She picked up a umbrella skeleton from the rubbish dump. ppl were laughing at her as she walked by.

then a voice called out to her "Young Lady, young lady! That's a pretty nice umbrella you've got there. Can you let us in underneath it, too? Our umbrellas broke in the storm." it was Gintoki and Shinpachi.

Kagura's face brighten and and held her umbrella high to let them both underneath it.

as they walked, you can still see the good umbrellas in the hands of Gintoki and Shinpachi.


So... when was the last time you walked in the rain with a friend? :)