Yesterday gull sent me an email about the conversation he had with irin over msn.
Hmmmm.... seems like she tried talking to WQ about us as well. bad mistake. hahaha WQ is somehow the total opposite of me. he's competitive while i'm cooperative. he's a male chauvinist while i'm not. Seems like he had given irin an impression that i'm feeling inferior due the the fact that irin is much higher educated than me. haiz... inferiority complex is a BIG thing with irin.
the truth is, i'm proud of what she has achieved and will achieve. and i have no qualms about her earning more than me or paying for me or stuff.
Seems like alot of compliments are coming to me recently.
Seagull: i believe that randy is not a slacker or someone who enjoys doing nothing
he is someone with capability and will go far in the righ environment
he has yet to realise his potential
Thanks, dude. thats one of the best compliment that anyone can have. kinda of remind me of feng yun. 金鳞本是池中物，一遇风云便化龙。
Slash had a very high opinion of me as a IT person.
the most surprising thing was that today my mom said to me something that she had never said before. When she and my family went to attend the prize presentation which i was the N-level top student, they ran into my principal and he told my mom that i was a very intelligent person. since that time, my mom always thinks that i'm meant for "GREAT" things. hahahaha all my life, my mom only comment to me that i wasnt a kind person, even to the point of ruthless.
Today went over to TPY for Bak Gu Teh. Uncle4 bought 3 baskets of durian and they were eating durian like crazy. Dad let me drive his car ard the car park a few times. hmmmm... auto car will need some time to get used to. parking also will need practise since the poles are no longer there to guide. the "party" was nice. alot of ppl came. food's awesome too.
Seems like Sunny is abit shy ard ppl. she have a tendenacy to cling onto ppl that she know. she cant even talk to strangers properly. hahaha. when i asked her, how did she managed to start talking to me, she didnt know. life is such. sudden. unexplained.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Saturday, June 20, 2009
20th June 2009
Yesterday flunk my M9 again. haiz... Kok Wah wan to arrange for me to try again, go for refresher as well as go to his office where he will go through the text with me. -_-" even til now, i'm not sure how much comission will there be for selling policies. also whether there will be basic or not. Hmmm... maybe it's time to find kok wah and hammer out the terms and stuff. I'll be needing money to move ard and support my basic needs.
After the flunked test, went over to PS to put in stock. will be concentrating more on selling my old extras. mainly chibi gallery stuff. Shannon had some difficulty with customer and merchants again. service line is always like that. you cant please all of the ppl all of the time.
Went over to meet boon and ray for nihon mura. nice long talking session. crap about everything there is. talk about finance and future plans as well. basically the 3 of us are not working at the moment. Ray will be looking for work using his degree though. as for me and boon, paper quali not there. have to look for other means.
After the buffet, went over the millinia walk to chill out and try some new coffee at starbucks. Slash came lugging a big box. a new NAS that can hold up to 4 HDDs. wanted to try out the dark mocca, but end up just taking abit from ray and slash in order to save my last $10 for popeye chicken later. Tubei came over to chill also. Shinvy came also. angie and her colleague dropped in for 5 mins. now then i know that slasher tot that i have a strong dislike for going to the cinema. hahaha, when i say that its not the cinema but its a money issue, then we both realise that slash had all the while tot that i have no money issue, and that i have been doing IT at home as a side income as he is. hahaha, then i just told him, if he is willing to pay, i'm willing to go.
After coffee, tubei left to meet his friend for movie. me boon ray shinvy slash went over to Popeye chicken to meet up with pebble. Popeye chicken shrunk... how sad... haiz... Boon left early to catch the last bus. me slash pebble ray shinvy went to sit by the river to enjoy the sea breeze while chatting. pebble told us about her office politics and bad IT service. slash and i laughed as we plan out all kind of evil things we can do to thier IT dept. Head feel very big today as slash compliment me twice: that i'm one of the few who can see through ppl (mainly him) and that i have GREAT IT skills. by the way, both are not true. i just know how to BS ppl. hahaha. at the end, shinvy got too tired. so we went home.
Hmmm... actually i was thinking if i should be bringing sunny along to meet them. think she might enjoy talking to them also. Sun lovers are a very unique group of ppl. slash comment that in the history of IRC, there wasnt any group that was as active, as big, as happening as sunlovers. even now, there isnt any to match.
Sunny almost fainted when she saw my collection of comics. how can anyone have so much comics stacked under the desk? then i showed her whats in the cupboard. her eyes went wide~ then i showed her whats in yan's room. needless to say, she asked to borrow some. :) nay... i told her that she can come over and read anytime.
Sunny had the nickname of literature girl. a similarity between us. someone once asked why am i always seen with a book? another person answered if randy isnt with a book, he isnt randy. hahaha well... that was in the paper age. but even know, i feel better flipping a book that just reading everything off a LCD screen. even though i read most of the stuff online due the the speed of release as well as money issue, i'll still go and buy the comic books when i have the money.
Wonder if all Taurus or all earth-based horoscopes are like that. Sunny likes to eat yummy food. irin always comes to mind when talking about food outings. Sunny likes hangs out with her friends and eat yummy food. maybe the 2 of them can become good friends?
After the flunked test, went over to PS to put in stock. will be concentrating more on selling my old extras. mainly chibi gallery stuff. Shannon had some difficulty with customer and merchants again. service line is always like that. you cant please all of the ppl all of the time.
Went over to meet boon and ray for nihon mura. nice long talking session. crap about everything there is. talk about finance and future plans as well. basically the 3 of us are not working at the moment. Ray will be looking for work using his degree though. as for me and boon, paper quali not there. have to look for other means.
After the buffet, went over the millinia walk to chill out and try some new coffee at starbucks. Slash came lugging a big box. a new NAS that can hold up to 4 HDDs. wanted to try out the dark mocca, but end up just taking abit from ray and slash in order to save my last $10 for popeye chicken later. Tubei came over to chill also. Shinvy came also. angie and her colleague dropped in for 5 mins. now then i know that slasher tot that i have a strong dislike for going to the cinema. hahaha, when i say that its not the cinema but its a money issue, then we both realise that slash had all the while tot that i have no money issue, and that i have been doing IT at home as a side income as he is. hahaha, then i just told him, if he is willing to pay, i'm willing to go.
After coffee, tubei left to meet his friend for movie. me boon ray shinvy slash went over to Popeye chicken to meet up with pebble. Popeye chicken shrunk... how sad... haiz... Boon left early to catch the last bus. me slash pebble ray shinvy went to sit by the river to enjoy the sea breeze while chatting. pebble told us about her office politics and bad IT service. slash and i laughed as we plan out all kind of evil things we can do to thier IT dept. Head feel very big today as slash compliment me twice: that i'm one of the few who can see through ppl (mainly him) and that i have GREAT IT skills. by the way, both are not true. i just know how to BS ppl. hahaha. at the end, shinvy got too tired. so we went home.
Hmmm... actually i was thinking if i should be bringing sunny along to meet them. think she might enjoy talking to them also. Sun lovers are a very unique group of ppl. slash comment that in the history of IRC, there wasnt any group that was as active, as big, as happening as sunlovers. even now, there isnt any to match.
Sunny almost fainted when she saw my collection of comics. how can anyone have so much comics stacked under the desk? then i showed her whats in the cupboard. her eyes went wide~ then i showed her whats in yan's room. needless to say, she asked to borrow some. :) nay... i told her that she can come over and read anytime.
Sunny had the nickname of literature girl. a similarity between us. someone once asked why am i always seen with a book? another person answered if randy isnt with a book, he isnt randy. hahaha well... that was in the paper age. but even know, i feel better flipping a book that just reading everything off a LCD screen. even though i read most of the stuff online due the the speed of release as well as money issue, i'll still go and buy the comic books when i have the money.
Wonder if all Taurus or all earth-based horoscopes are like that. Sunny likes to eat yummy food. irin always comes to mind when talking about food outings. Sunny likes hangs out with her friends and eat yummy food. maybe the 2 of them can become good friends?
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
17th June 2009
Brain overload. System Malfunction. Woke up with a stiff neck and a headache.
Went to take a nap after lunch. applied boost to my neck and shoulder and took 2 panadol. feeling alot better for class later. hopefully can recall back everything for friday's test. think it was a mistake to load the day with theory lessons on monday and tuesday.
Think i must be going crazy... while trying to keep my distance from Sunny, i actually turned down offers for sex. -_-" haiz... this is a hopeless situation. Irin is waiting for me to get back with her, Sunny is trying to close the gap, and i'm running away from everything.
but why did i turn down free sex? i have no idea. maybe sex isnt that much of a hype to me anymore. maybe i just dont wanna feel like betraying anyone...
Had a fight with Sunny last night. she was angry over my not telling her about my past gf. saying that i'm still thinking of them la, havent gotten over them lah. hmmm... not that i still have feelings for them but i dont wan images of them to come into the relationship. dont wan comparisons to be made and so on. cant everything start on a fresh panel?
hmmm... if really wanna see if i have feelings for them, what i can say is, if i run into them in the street and they ask for a $10 dollar, i'll lend it. $20? nope. of course, this will depend on whether i have money on me.
why do i do this kind of comparison? simple.
how much will you lend a stranger on the street?
in my case, not even $2. IRC ppl? i'll beat them if they even ask.
Time to start getting ready for class.
Went to take a nap after lunch. applied boost to my neck and shoulder and took 2 panadol. feeling alot better for class later. hopefully can recall back everything for friday's test. think it was a mistake to load the day with theory lessons on monday and tuesday.
Think i must be going crazy... while trying to keep my distance from Sunny, i actually turned down offers for sex. -_-" haiz... this is a hopeless situation. Irin is waiting for me to get back with her, Sunny is trying to close the gap, and i'm running away from everything.
but why did i turn down free sex? i have no idea. maybe sex isnt that much of a hype to me anymore. maybe i just dont wanna feel like betraying anyone...
Had a fight with Sunny last night. she was angry over my not telling her about my past gf. saying that i'm still thinking of them la, havent gotten over them lah. hmmm... not that i still have feelings for them but i dont wan images of them to come into the relationship. dont wan comparisons to be made and so on. cant everything start on a fresh panel?
hmmm... if really wanna see if i have feelings for them, what i can say is, if i run into them in the street and they ask for a $10 dollar, i'll lend it. $20? nope. of course, this will depend on whether i have money on me.
why do i do this kind of comparison? simple.
how much will you lend a stranger on the street?
in my case, not even $2. IRC ppl? i'll beat them if they even ask.
Time to start getting ready for class.
Monday, June 15, 2009
15th June 2009
Went back to class today for insurance. alot of things to absorb.
Spend some time with Sunny over the weekend. things are more or less ok. well... as long as she dont probe too much.
She's a nice ger la. hmmmm... can see some similarities between her and irin... i wonder if things will turn out the same way.
alot on my mind. dont really know how to say or what to say.
Hopefully, next week my directions will be clear. whether or not, i start selling insurance. i'll need to be getting some money in fast.
Spend some time with Sunny over the weekend. things are more or less ok. well... as long as she dont probe too much.
She's a nice ger la. hmmmm... can see some similarities between her and irin... i wonder if things will turn out the same way.
alot on my mind. dont really know how to say or what to say.
Hopefully, next week my directions will be clear. whether or not, i start selling insurance. i'll need to be getting some money in fast.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
12th June 2009
Yesterday i passed my driving. haiz... why not happy? dont know. dont feel it.
Went to PC show with Ray and Seagull. Nothing much really. but it was already quite crowded at 3plus. cant imagine how things will be in the evening.
M1 and Starhub were offering free laptop with mobile broadband. frankly, if it was LG, i would have asked yan to go ahead with it. other than that, nothing much to look at. HP colour lasers going at 400+.
Went to Simlim after Suntec to buy laptop cooling pad for mrs gull. after which, went to sunshine.
Chill out at iluma abit. then go home liao.
Sunny kept trying to ask me out. but recently i'm feeling very lazy to go out.
dont know lah... even though i feel like meeting her, i dont wan her to think that i'm always at her disposal, or that my time is not valuable to me. i wan my own time. time alone. time to do nothing. even if i'm doing nothing, i'm doing my something. hopes she understands. dont really talk to her much on the phone either. i still dont like talking on the phone.
Ppl will always have a different view point on different objects. some will think spending on IT stuff is worth it, some thinks not. i hope Sunny dont get the wrong idea. but that's just how i am and i hope that she can accept it.
alot of ppl are thinking that me and irin will get back together again. i dont deny that possibility. just that, there are certain changes i wan to see happening. not only in her. but also in me. what kind of changes? i dont know. even if i know, i cant tell.
Some might call me a two timer. but frankly, what would you do in my shoes?
Went to PC show with Ray and Seagull. Nothing much really. but it was already quite crowded at 3plus. cant imagine how things will be in the evening.
M1 and Starhub were offering free laptop with mobile broadband. frankly, if it was LG, i would have asked yan to go ahead with it. other than that, nothing much to look at. HP colour lasers going at 400+.
Went to Simlim after Suntec to buy laptop cooling pad for mrs gull. after which, went to sunshine.
Chill out at iluma abit. then go home liao.
Sunny kept trying to ask me out. but recently i'm feeling very lazy to go out.
dont know lah... even though i feel like meeting her, i dont wan her to think that i'm always at her disposal, or that my time is not valuable to me. i wan my own time. time alone. time to do nothing. even if i'm doing nothing, i'm doing my something. hopes she understands. dont really talk to her much on the phone either. i still dont like talking on the phone.
Ppl will always have a different view point on different objects. some will think spending on IT stuff is worth it, some thinks not. i hope Sunny dont get the wrong idea. but that's just how i am and i hope that she can accept it.
alot of ppl are thinking that me and irin will get back together again. i dont deny that possibility. just that, there are certain changes i wan to see happening. not only in her. but also in me. what kind of changes? i dont know. even if i know, i cant tell.
Some might call me a two timer. but frankly, what would you do in my shoes?
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
10th June 2009
Hmmm... the inevitable has happened.
Sunny started asking about my past gf.
Should i tell? or should i not?
Irin likes to drag my past gfs out when we have a fight. hate it when that happens.
Not becos i still have feeling for them, but the names reminds me of my failed relationships. Learn from failures but never dwell on them for they only bring negative effect.
Tomorrow will be my 3rd driving test. Please God, let me stay calm, drive smooth, passed through.
Sunny started asking about my past gf.
Should i tell? or should i not?
Irin likes to drag my past gfs out when we have a fight. hate it when that happens.
Not becos i still have feeling for them, but the names reminds me of my failed relationships. Learn from failures but never dwell on them for they only bring negative effect.
Tomorrow will be my 3rd driving test. Please God, let me stay calm, drive smooth, passed through.
Room 2009
A walk through of my current room. Dont not panic if you get lost. shout and our personel will be with you shortly.
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