11th December 2008

Hubby and me met up with liz and jon for chongqing yesterday, everything was ok but we didn't enjoy ourselves or eat as much as before, maybe it is due to the ambience ba, last time it was used to be quiet and nice but now might be due the tv show, it is getting very crowded and noisy. After we went for chongqing, hubby and jon went to shop for jon's helicopter while me and liz went over to meet Jia for Mango Sales. Went to three outlets spend $200 over on clothes but luckily the ones that I bought aren't all for me. At night we met with boon for archery and we went for ice cream at swenson. Had the rainbow ice cream, thought the ice cream favour was not bad, and Swenson will donate $2 to charity for every ice cream, so decided to order that.

Think it's kinda of sweet that hubby is willing to go for steamboat (he doesn't like steamboat) as well as staying out instead of going home for me. Feel kinda bad becoz he was having a very bad headache due to lack of sleep. Humpf, Thanks hubby for everything. Muacks...

Some pictures of chongqing and swenson:

Jon and hubby, I wonder what is Jon looking at...

The mala side of the steamboat...

Our side of the steamboat... Love the chicken soup

Overall Picture..

Tray 1 of out food, we did not order the lettuce and xiao bai chai thou...

The tray with the food we usually order: Fish glue, beef, fish.. wonder where is the wanton and pork and tau kee...

Lizzie staring at the steamboat, I like the smokey effect...Hahaha

Jon and Hubby 2.. Humpf, they only have eyes for each another, sad...

The steamboat that we cleared...

Swenson Rainbow ice that I ate... The favours are yam, mango and S'berry.. The rainbow is made of chocolate and the stars are butter cookies


Hubby was sulky, but he loves his ice cream thou..


Jon look surprise.. But dunno about what..

Rin

11th Dec 2008 - rek

Blogging is a powerful tool. Like all swords, its double edged.

Its allows one to share his darkest tots, however, if it gets into the wrong hands, alot of damage can be done. Irin reads my old blog and sometimes we fight over it. Alf choose to end our friendship due to something i blogged too.

One of the gachapon-loaders called me to ask if Alf is a friend of mine. i was taken by surprised. upon further query, i was told that Alf requested them to open the machines to sell him the gachapons he want. hmmmm... what i replied was that, if its my friend, they would have came to me, instead of approaching them. unless neccessary, i wont approach the loaders for help. the same would apply to my friends as i'll cover them as well.

Abit unhappy about another "friend". i asked him if he wanted the new disney emblem 3. he say yes, help him get a set. when i asked him to transfer me the money first, he say he'll pay me when we meet up. -_-" the issue is, i dont meet him often. and currently i'm jobless and penniless. i'm still able to turn gachapons as i'm turning my friend's sets with the money they passed me in advance. i'm ok with helping ppl turn gachapons, BUT! firstly, it must not strain me financially. secondly, i dont like to have difficult requests placed on me.

Enough about gachapons. relationship now.

Things are more or less ok with irin currently. but from the recent big fights, i start to understand that there are more to a relationship than just feelings. Feelings must be there, but there must be supporting factors.
贫贱夫妻百事哀。Without financial support, relationships will be strained. tempers flare easily. in simple words, a hungry man is an angry man.
bio-clocks must match - sleeping hours, sex drive. lets face it, i have a 10 year age gap with irin. i have a habit of waking at 8. she wakes at 11. she loves to talk to me before sleeping. and some times the conversation ends ard 3am. to me, its a 5 hours sleep, to her, its a 8 hours sleep. -_-" maybe without work, i can adjust my timing. but when i start working again? hmmm... might have to talk this out.
Ambition must be in sync. without a common goal, ants will be crawling all over the place. with a common goal, elephants can also be consumed by ants.

Lets work hard for the future, shall we? GREAT~! I'll get the car, You get the stockings, Boon get the weapons and we'll ROB a bank~

9th December 2008

This have been rough for both me and hubby recently, and even for our relationship. We almost went our seperate ways over our differences in our beliefs and thinking. But we manage to patch things up, but I still feel that there is something between us, maybe still the difference in our thinking and etc, but got a hunch that if we do not clear the difference up things will be even harder for us in the future. Hopefully things will clear up soon and we will get our feelings back again.

My exams just ended, did not have any confidence in passing at all, thus causing the stress in me to build up all over again. I just feel so useless, so stupid, so dumb that I don't even have the confidence to pass a paper that I retook from last sem. But all the people around me keep telling me that ACCA is not that simple, the passing rate is not very high, so i dun have to feel inferior about retaking the papers, but I simply can't help it. To me, failing the paper once, I could say that maybe I am inexperience or unlucky, but failing the paper twice, I can no longer find any other excuses. Probably ACCA is really not my forte, maybe it is time for me to stop studying and go work instead.

Although I am deprive from my retail therapy since I have not been shopping for the past 2 months(due to exams and monetary constraints), I am not very excited about Christmas and New Year shopping that I will have to do (pressie for family and friends as well as CNY clothes) there is so little time and so much to buy, so much to think, and I even have to help mama with her pressie that she is buying for my cousins and aunts, Doubt I have time to shop, coz if I would to spend more time shopping I might have less than for hubby. Am I willing to give up my personal time with hubby for shopping? I am not too sure about that.. But glad that linda has settle the auntie's christmas pressie a long time ago and all I have to do is play and at the same time mama gave me some ideas about the things that we could consider buying for those that doesn't have a present. Hopefully I can get all the pressie ready by Christmas ba..

Rin

7th Dec 2008 - rek

Haiz... things havent been going my way other than turning gachapons.

Irin made a big huha when i told her i might be going to church.

Mom wants me to take over the fried doughstick stall with dad.

Currently, Irin isnt talking to me. Mom's sad when i say i'll just resign first, then see what to do. and i dont wanna take over the business. Mom wants me to take over and industrialise, but how to? without funds to do it (dad's against monetary support), its simply not possible.

Feel like giving up... feel like shaving my head... feel like running away...

why does everyone make so much noise? why cant i hear myself anymore? why cant i be happy?

6th Dec 2008 - rek

Progress so far.

on my list of things to do:
-repack all my toys (my own collections): yet to start
-repack all toys for sale as well and post them on the toyblog: On and off
-sort out existing IT-related stuff in my room, keep only those that might have useful and bwang the rest or pass them back to Yeo: packed last night, threw most of it.
-sort out all the CDs, file them or bwang them or something: yet to start
-download all the roms to date. (from 2850 to 3050 at least): got til 3112. YES~
-reorganise my room for better usage and easier access: er... is this even possible?

On and off, ppl keep reminding me to move on with my life. get another job. get your driving license. haiz... not that i'm not trying to. when someone reminds me, the stress level goes back up and i have to start from scratch again. cant i relax before moving on? maybe i should hide in the room more often. or i should hide outside more.

3rd Dec 2008 - rek

Woke up blur today. i forgot to wish yan happy birthday even when i remembered it, i just keeps slipping my mind. then i forgot about smsing boon about asking him out for sashime buffet. so just go with the flow. at the same time, 120 ask if i can go with her to settle her divorce papers. after me and boon finished with the buffet, we went over to meet her.

sat and talked for a while at mac after finishing. then 120 went for her class and boon went for his haircut. i went to get some ziplock bag and then went over to CSC then suntec.

at suntec, hang ard abit, watch the mummy - dragon emperor abit, then meet jurgen and gang. after that, i went off early to go to cineleisure, looks like my hunch was correct as i got first 2 capsules as dale. then go home.

Through out the day, i find that some how, without irin, things looks a different colour. the colour of sian. haiz... i wan abit of freedom, but i miss her too. can i have a split personality to settle both at the same time?

3rd December 2008

Yeah... done with 2 out of my 4 papers (completed tax and law) but still have 2 more to go. Hopefully I can pass the papers that I have already took. Can't wait to be done with my papers then I can go out and play. Wanted to go overseas but doubt I could since school is starting again on the 2nd of Jan, but at least I will be spending sometime at Downtown East.

Need to shop for Christmas gifts and Clothes for New Year soon, can't wait for the shopping to start. Looking forward for Chong Qing too, wan all the wantons and the bamboo fungus. Think I am a little brain dead now, so guess I will stop here ba. Oh, Miss Lizzie, I wanna go shopping? Sms when you see this entry k.. and we have to schedule our time for chong qing too...

Rin